Reasons # 1,296 and 3,543... Alternate title "WTF????????"
I opened up my news browser and three of the first stories that came across were about young children and their untimely deaths at the hands of a 'loved one'.
1) "Grandma Jailed for Tossing Tot to Death"
2) "Mom Drowns Baby Live on Internet"
3) "New Tactic in Search for Missing Boy"
My heart is in pieces and my stomach is turning and my mind is, simply, confused.... How do these things happen??? There are so many people who are so desperate to have children in their lives to love. There are so many people who have children that hold them dear, treasures to their hearts. There are so many people who struggle and fight to keep their little ones alive and safe and healthy. There are so many who grieve the ones that they have lost, far too soon...
How does this happen? Let me break down each story for you...
1) "Grandma Jailed for Tossing Tot to Death"
Grandmother tosses a two year old off of a sixth story walkway. Her 'excuse' is that the baby interfered with her daughters chances at a better life. The child was an inconvenience. She did not approve of the childs father....
2) "Mom Drowns Baby Live on Internet"
While looking for ways to 'discipline' her one year old for being too much of an inconvenience, she goes on line, on Skype with her boyfriend, and they 'discipline the child by holding her under the water... The child ultimately drowned...
3) "New Tactic in Search for Missing Boy"
After a mother gives multiple conflicting stories about her toddlers whereabouts, and is simply unable to determine to authorities where the child is after several days of being missing, the police have finally resorted to Cadaver Dogs to try to determine his fate...
If I don't know where my children are for an instant, I'm thrown into a panic... I can't tell you how many parents laugh at meat the park and playground... If I lose sight and sound of them, I will stop a conversation with the adult that I am talking with... I crouch down, like, in Tiger mode... I put on my 'listening ears'... My mind races to remember what color shirt they are wearing, so that I can focus on that while I scan the area... When I see them, I am instantly relieved and go on with my conversation...
I've, obviously heard these stories before, but over the last 9 1/2 years, I can't hear them with the same ears... As a parent, I can't fathom how the fuck this happens... I understand that sometimes, arguably, there is mental illness involved and extreme circumstances... But this is no longer isolated 'Susan Smith' cases... It's EVERYDAY.... Several times a day...
I don't understand where the hard wiring of being maternal or paternal goes THAT wrong....
I'm listening to the kiddos snoring in the next room, and I am so comforted that they are close to me... But, I will go to sleep very sad tonight, grieving for these children that just wanted and needed and craved to be with their parents...
Reasons # 3,543 and 1,296... The Reasons Why I Love...
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